Going Off Topic (#9) The Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Week


Oh you guys, this week has just been the worst. I’ll give you the option to just close this tab now, because honestly, this post is here more because I find it therapeutic to write about rather than talk about. It’s nothing movie related, and it’s not very interesting either, but it’s all about one of the worst weeks of my life. Normal blog posts will resume shortly…I hope!

Where to begin? It was on the Thursday. I had to take our little one for her 16 week immunisations in the morning. They’re horrible, she had 2 jabs in one thigh and another jab in the other and oh, she cried. She stayed grisly for the rest of the day, and then it came to nighttime. I think we’ve been quite lucky really, she has a feed around 4-5am but otherwise sleeps through the night. Not this time though. She was up at midnight wanting a feed, as well as her usual.

Actually, I need to rewind a little further. I’d asked my husband to book a couple of days off work that week anyway as I’d been really struggling by myself and could really do with his company (and help!) just to recharge myself a little. It was great, those two days, but as soon as he went back to work it all fell apart again. I’ve struggled emotionally ever since our little girl was born, I lost a lot of my pregnancy weight in the first week because I had no apetite at all, and I cried spontaneously for at least the first month. Things started to get a little better, there would be the occasional bad day, but nothing out of the ordinary. 4 months down the line though, I don’t know at what point it happened, but every day was a bad day.

I just found everything difficult, and couldn’t enjoy the things I used to. It’s hard to explain to be honest. That Thursday was my breaking point, and I booked myself an appointment to see a doctor the next morning.

The doctor was really helpful and asked me a whole bunch of questions, and I was nervous to answer them all. I told her about how I felt like each day’s goal was to just survive and make it to bedtime, just to start all over again, and when she asked me how I felt about the future I realised just how bad I was truly feeling. Long story short, I’ve been diagnosed with Post-Natal Depression and been put onto medication to help me out.

That’s great and all but the horrible thing about these tablets is how ill they make you feel. I was told I’d feel sick and tired, and I might go off my food, but for the first 4-5 days all I ate each day was one piece of toast, and I lay awake at night absolutely freezing but sweating like crazy.

The night I took my first tablet, our little girl had a funny turn. She refused her milk bottle at 6pm, which is completely unlike her. We kept her up till 9pm and got her ready for bed, and she refused that bottle too, but then started screaming non-stop. After about an hour we got her to sleep, but she soon woke up screaming again, and refused the bottle, so we took her to the emergency room at the hospital. We spent about 5 hours there in total through the night. They monitored her temperature, pulse and blood sugars and we kept offering her milk in between her sleeping, but she drank none of it. Eventually we were told to go home, let her sleep and try her again in the morning.

At 6am she woke up again and actually had some milk! She went 15 hours all together which was so scary. She wasn’t herself for another few days but is feeling much better now thankfully.

So, on that Monday my husband called in sick to help me out because I still felt awful from my medication. He doesn’t get paid for sick days and with me on maternity leave it’s a huge deal, but I was so grateful. Tuesday morning came and I told him I didn’t know how I was going to get through the day, and I think he felt awful for leaving me. However, 2 hours later he came back home and told me he’d arranged with work to have the rest of the week off, huzzah!

However…within an hour of being home he became ill and spent most of the day in the bathroom. We took him to see a doctor the next morning and got some anti-biotics. It’s probably a water infection that he’s got, but could actually be the first signs of appendicitis. Needless to say, I spent the week looking after him instead.

So where are we now? Our little one is back to her usual self, my husband is back to work and fingers crossed, feeling better, and I’ve got my appetite back. It’s still too early for my medication to make me start to feel better, but I’m getting by okay for now. Fingers crossed I’ll be back to watching movies and blogging real soon!


Going Off Topic (#8) A New Normal

You guys, I made a resolution to try and post once a week and so far I’ve managed it every 3 days! I hope this isn’t just an amazing start that’s going to fail by February, like every diet I’ve ever started on Jan 1st. To be fair, it’s because my little one has been a gem at bedtime lately and it’s given me this laptop time! In fact, life itself has got more of a routine now, I can’t believe Daisy is going to be 3 months old next week!


Life isn’t ever going to be the same again, just trying to do the week’s food shop requires professional event planning experience, but we’re finding a new normal, and we can do more ‘normal’ things now. In fact, on Wednesday I’m meeting up with Jenna to see The Greatest Showman at the cinema! I cannot WAIT. I hope it’s good, I’ve been avoiding listening to the soundtrack in advance in case I ruin it for myself.

What else? We’re planning a big American holiday for next year to celebrate mine and my husband’s 30th birthday (ugh I’m old!) and just today I’ve made plans to go back to Disneyland Paris with 2 of my favourite girlfriends where I’ll be child-free for a couple of days! I might even get drunk! Ahh, simple pleasures…

So, TV wise I’m doing terribly. Bedtimes may be great, but dinner times aren’t, and in 5 weeks we’ve watched 4 episodes of The Punisher. We’ll get there eventually! It took us about 3 weeks to watch Season 2 of Stranger Things, and that was well worth the wait! I daren’t (is that a word?) even try and speculate what we’ll watch next, although I hear Season 4 of Black Mirror is out!


It takes me an entire day (sometimes 2) to watch a movie in chunks at the moment, but I’ve been able to see quite a few this month so far! I haven’t blogged about all of them just because some I don’t have much to say about, but here’s a little recap:
The LEGO Ninjago Movie (2017) – Not as good as the trailers made it look, but still enjoyable and worth a watch.
Flatliners (2017) – I’ve never seen the original so can’t compare, but I actually quite enjoyed it. Diego Luna makes everything better!
mother! (2017) – What. The. Actual. Hell. It took me far too long to realise the whole thing was a religious metaphor. I loved the first half until I caught on.
Dunkirk (2017)Review here.
Battle of the Sexes (2017)Review here.
Three Billboards Outside Ebbing, Missouri (2018)Review here.
The Shape of Water (2017) – Not my kind of thing at all, but I enjoyed it nonetheless!

Next week I’m hoping to see Focus (2015) which my family watched last week and loved, and I need to see if any of the other big awards movies are out on VOD yet to catch up as best as I can!

Is there anything you guys have watched recently which you loved and recommend? I’m still clueless on the latest releases!

Bonus GIF just because…


Going Off Topic (#7) Identity Crisis

This might just be the longest I’ve gone without blogging. Pregnancy is hard, you guys! I’ve got just less than 4 weeks till my due date now, and I’m at that point where I don’t remember what life was like not being pregnant. I don’t remember sleeping through the night without needing to pee, or being able to get off the sofa without effort, discomfort, and grunting noises.

I’ve watched very little movies lately – I just haven’t had the energy, and that got me thinking long and hard about what I want to do with this little blog of mine.


First things first, I’m finding my passion for movies again. That happened fairly soon after a friend asked me about an upcoming release that I realised I hadn’t even heard of, let alone seen a trailer for or had on my watch list. I feel so out of the loop! It made me quite sad tell the truth, so that’s the start of getting back on top of things for me.

One thing I have been doing more of though is reading books. It might take me over a week to get through one because my reading time is so fragmented, but I haven’t loved reading so much since I was a kid in school, so I’d like to blog some more about what I’ve been reading.

I guess the point I’m trying to make is that I know fairly soon the life I know is going to be turned upside down. I love to write and I need to make more time for it, but my go-to subject of movies might get difficult to blog about for a while.


I might start blogging more and more about my life in general, because it helps me, and it serves the purpose of a journal too – something I used to love doing when I was younger.

I’ll still blog about my hobbies as much as I can – but I hope you guys are also okay with me sharing some life stories more often than I normally do.

Going off Topic (#6) What have I become?!


I’m in such a blogging rut right now. When I can bring myself to sit down with my laptop for an hour and get the creative juices flowing, I love it and I’m reminded about why I have a blog in the first place. I press ‘publish’ with glee and update my links, and think about drafting up a couple more posts to keep me going for the week. That doesn’t happen and then I fall off the wagon completely for a few days at a time, so I’m really sorry for not visiting everyone elses’ blogs very often.

I’m determined to get back on track, though! Come October when this little monster is born I know I’m going to have to take a bit of a break, but I’d like to stay as active as I can till then. Besides, I’ve been watching tons of things lately so it’s not like I don’t have anything to write about!


Speaking of giving birth in October…I’m officially a pregnant lady you guys. I know I’ve been pregnant since January, but I actually look like a proper pregnant lady now! Getting out of bed in the morning is like trying to reenact a turtle stuck on it’s back, and strangers on the street aren’t afraid to approach me in case I’m just fat.

We’ve made an amazing start on the nursery! The walls have been painted, the cot has been bought and assembled, and THE CUTEST PRAM IN THE WORLD is being delivered today. Why am I suddenly obsessed with pastel pinks/purples and unicorns?! Who is this person I have become?! I’m starting to plan when to go on maternity leave…this is all getting a bit real now.


Our cat Loki, ‘helping’ to build the cot, and the cutest pram in the world!

Let’s talk movies before I start to panic, shall we?

Like I mentioned, I’ve been watching quite a few things that I haven’t actually discussed/reviewed here yet! Most recently, I watched Night at the Museum: Secret of the Tomb (2014) after Cinematic Corner reminded me Dan Stevens was in it. I don’t know why I hadn’t seen it sooner to be honest, I’ve always had a bit of a soft spot for the Night at the Museum movies. They aren’t comedic masterpieces, but they’re great family movies! Dan Stevens didn’t disappoint, and now I have to apologise to anyone caught in the firing line of me randomly shouting out ‘HUGE?! ACKMAN?!’ without any warning whatsoever!

I can’t believe I haven’t done a Spider-Man: Homecoming (2017) post yet. That was a brilliant movie, and despite my grumbles about the 1,000,001 trailers showing every single action scene, there was still plenty to enjoy.

Far too long after my Dad recommending it, I watched Naked Gun: From the Files of Police Squad! (1988) one night when I was feeling down. That and Airplane! (1980) might just be my favourite comedies of all time. It’s just my kind of humour! I heard the other 2 Naked Gun movies aren’t as great though. Can anyone recommend anything else I might enjoy based off this?

I was going to do a post after watching In Bruges (2008) last month, but when I tried to explain it to my husband, I think he really wants to see it too so I might watch it again with him before I do that. Isn’t it annoying when someone won’t watch a movie with you till you’ve seen it yourself and can confirm how good it is? I think that’s how I ended up watching Drive twice in 2 days!

Don’t ask me about Mulholland Drive (2001). I appreciate it for what it is, but it hurt my head so much. You know when you’re watching a movie and you’re confused as hell, but you know all the pieces will come together in the last 20 minutes? Yeah, no. That didn’t happen…


Also, I think I’m FINALLY going to see Baby Driver tomorrow night! I’m fully expecting us to be the only couple in the room seeings as the whole world has seen it already.

This is the part where I would share some links to my fellow bloggers’ posts, but I’m so far behind right now! I promise I’ll have another off topic ramble soon, but in the meantime I’ll be doing plenty of reading. Thanks for sticking with me!

Going off Topic (#5) The chocolate on my biscuits has melted…


It’s just too warm! I’m in the UK, it’s currently 29 degrees, (84 Fahrenheit for those that use it) I’m practically dying from hayfever, and I’m pregnant enough now that everyone I meet is asking me “how are you coping in this heat?”. Not well, thank you, I can’t sleep at night and my nose is at risk of dripping with no warning whatsoever. I can’t even enjoy a fruit cider or cocktail slushie in the garden, so go away and leave me to sulk!

Obligatory British-weather rant over.

So, I’ve kind of got back into the swing of blogging on a regular basis again! I had to take a break because I just found myself not really watching any movies, and that kind of makes it hard to actually blog about movies, you know? However, I’ve found my mojo again, even though I STILL haven’t seen Wonder Woman. The universe just doesn’t want me to. I’ve got plans to see it tonight actually, mainly as an excuse for cinnamon buns ice cream and an air-conditioned room. Keep your fingers crossed for me – I might be there tonight!

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I’ve kept fairly on top of blogging about everything that I’ve seen lately. In case you missed them, this month so far I’ve reviewed Shimmer Lake (2017), Fist Fight (2017), Before I Fall (2017), The Belko Experiment (2017) and Baywatch (2017). I doubt I’ll review it but I watched Tower Heist (2011) on a whim the other week. My husband and I stuck on a DVD, a trailer for that came on and we thought ‘eh, let’s see if we can watch that instead!’. It was alright, kind of what you’d expect with that title, but had some good stars in. I also watched CHiPS (2017) over the weekend, I kind of enjoyed it, but it wasn’t as heavy on the comedy as I thought it would be.

Last night I watched Personal Shopper (2017). I knew the name just because it was mentioned a lot in Cannes Film Festival posts I’d read, but I honestly had no idea what it was about. It stars Kristen Stewart, and with the title, I thought it would be some kind of ‘Devil Wears Prada’ kind of movie but it’s actually a spiritual ghost story! Not what I expected at all. It’s got a lot of depth and a very cryptic ending, which didn’t sit well with me, but made sense when I researched it afterwards. Not my cup of tea if I’m honest, but I wouldn’t begrudge anyone who loved it.


TV wise, I’m loving the hell out of Fargo Season 3. I struggled with the first episode but it’s just gotten stronger each week. I’ve never seen David Thewlis like this before, in fact I actually struggle to watch some of his scenes. Ewan McGregor might just be my favourite actor of 2017 at this rate, and I’m dying to dig up some more of Mary Elizabeth Winstead’s filmography. The finale is this week, arghhhhh! I’m hearing a lot of good things about Twin Peaks, can any readers recommend that I give that a go once I have a Fargo-shaped hole in my life?

I wouldn’t ramble at you for 500 words without giving you something good to read at the end of it all, so here are some of my favourite posts from the last week or so:

Cinematic Corner reviews Wonder Woman – and she’s got me so hyped for it!

Two Dollar Cinema reviews The Mummy – I haven’t seen it myself but I can guarantee his review is more entertaining than the blockbuster itself!

Dell on Movies writes a moving post following the death of Adam West this month.

Life of this City Girl reviews my favourite food-related movie, Chef. Aaaaand now I’m hungry again.

Going Off Topic (#4) I fell off the blogging wagon and landed in Disneyland Paris


I’ve been for a while, and I’m so sorry! Turns out being pregnant kind of sucks sometimes. Between all the sleeping, nausea, bathroom breaks and panicking, I wasn’t leaving myself with much time to actually watch anything, let alone blog about it. I’m into the second trimester now though, and feeling more lively, which was good timing as I’ve just got back from Disneyland Paris!

It was a trip I’ve had booked for a long time now with my husband and 4 of our friends. In fact, it’s the first holiday we’ve been on as a group of friends! We had the best time and got far too much shopping done, but we couldn’t resist the pins and a couple of outfits for our baby girl! That’s right! We had an elective gender scan booked the night before we traveled, and we’re having a girl. I’m over the moon!


Although I haven’t been watching much, I’ve got some reading done over the last few weeks. I read the first book in Stephen King’s Bill Hodges trilogy, Mr. Mercedes (LOVED it) and I’m actually over halfway in to the second book now, Finders Keepers. In between those books, a blogging friend of mine, Chris Widdop emailed me and asked if I would be interested in reading one of his novels, Velcro: The Ninja Kat. I jumped at the opportunity and Chris kindly gifted me the whole trilogy. I’ll have my review posted soon! Chris, you’re a talented guy.

I watched the first episode of Fargo: Season 3 before flying to Paris. I’m a huge fan of Season 1, and I thought Season 2 was pretty good too, but half way into the first episode of Season 3 I almost gave up. Too many characters were being introduced with no hint of a real plot, but I’m glad I stuck it out because I was hooked by the end. I’m really interested to see where this leads.

Also on my radar is 13 Reasons Why. This seems to be the show on everyone’s minds right now and I’m trying to stay away from reviews until I can watch it myself. I get the gist of what it’s about and the news of a Season 2 has confused me, but I won’t look into it any further. I have a feeling this show won’t take me long to get through!

I’ve been avoiding talking about movies because of how terribly I’ve done. I’ve watched 3 movies in 2 weeks! How bad is that! I watched Aladdin with my husband before our Disney trip because he hadn’t seen it since he was little, and I forgot how much I love that movie. Adam Driver’s SNL sketch of ‘A Whole New World’ has ruined that scene for me though. No, no, that’s a bad choice of wording. I’d actually prefer Adam Driver’s version slotted in to the original movie!

I FINALLY got to watch Get Out, after feeling like the only person in the world who hadn’t seen it. I went in virtually blind as many of you recommended, and I enjoyed it. I wish I loved it though, but I think the hype killed it for me a bit. It was fascinating, and funny in a ‘should I be laughing at this’ kind of way but the twists weren’t so shocking to me. That ending was absolutely genius though, I’ll give it that!

We went to see Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 on opening night at our nearest IMAX, and it was hella fun. I didn’t think it was possible for me to love Rocket any more than I already did, but I just fell for that little trash panda! I still prefer the original, but I knew more of the soundtrack in that one, and I’m a sucker for an origin story. Unless it’s Batman. I’m so fed up of his origin story.

So, I’ve been playing catch up on everyone else’s blogs, but here are some of my favourite posts that I read today:

The Punk Theory shared 5 of her Favourite Shows from when she was little.

The Sporadic Chronicles of a Beginner Blogger reviews my all-time favourite romcom, Crazy, Stupid, Love.

Rambling Film reminded me that Odd Thomas needs to be pushed to the top of my watch list.

Epileptic Moondancer reviews Get Out perfectly!

Two Dollar Cinema reviews my favourite trashy movie of the moment, Collateral Beauty.