It’s always around this time of year that I find myself reflecting. Not just on the year that’s coming to an end, but everything really. Before I get way too deep and phylisophical about life, I’ll try for once to stay on topic and talk about the blog. It was in December 2016 when I was running a movie blog called Flick Chicks with a friend that I realised it wasn’t working out anymore. My friend had given up long before and it didn’t feel right running it alone. That’s when I created Often Off Topic. And it’s again in December, 5 years later that I’m realising this isn’t working for me anymore either.
If I go back to the start, in 2013, I bought a little film journal that already had the templates for writing reviews and logging what movies you’ve watched. I loved it, filled it in religiously, and that planted the seed for wanting to write a blog. I’ve always wanted something visual as a keepsake for my memories. I collected cinema tickets (before COVID turned them all digital), I collected fridge magnets and pin badges whenever I went on holiday (before COVID ruined holidays), and, well, you get the gist.
I’m just not enjoying blogging as much as I used to. It was meant to be something for me to create to log what I’d watched, and my thoughts on them, but I lost my way. I’ve become obsessed with page views that are falling because of the rise of vlogging and apps like TikTok. I don’t rewatch many movies at all because I feel like I always have to write about new movies. I find myself writing posts that are solely to bring in more followers. Often, when I’m behind on writing, I stop myself from watching anything else because I’ll fall even further behind. And that’s just not right, is it?
But my passion for movies themselves hasn’t faltered, nor has my love of creating something that holds my memories of movies. I want to record even more, and so I’ve decided in 2022 I’m going to create a bullet journal. If you’ve never heard of them before, just give it a Google because I’d do a terrible job of explaining. But I’m really excited about it! It’s not going to be as beautiful as the ones you’ll see on Pinterest, I’m not going to loggings things like my hours slept (none) or my water intake for the day (caffeine might be better) but I’m going to create a bullet journal for my movies and TV shows watched, and my books read.
My conundrum is what to do with this blog. I can’t just give it up entirely, I’ve been away for a couple of weeks and I find myself itching to come back. Without reading your blogs I’m clueless as to what the new releases are, and I miss reading your reviews too. I haven’t made the decision yet of whether to just post screenshots from my bullet journal or whether to post a weekly ramble of what I’ve watched that week. I still want to be posting Top 10 lists of the year, and take part in blogathons but I just need to work out in what format I’ll do all of that.
For now though, I’m taking a break till the New Year. I’m trying to make this Christmas as magical as I can for my four-year-old, which is getting harder with more COVID restrictions coming in and our government being, well…words that I care not to type!
I hope you’re all keeping well, and I can’t wait to catch up on your blogs. I’m currently working from home, writing this in my lunch break with The Force Awakens on the TV in the background, the first time I’ve rewatched it in years!